Words to Lift Me Up

This morning as I was driving to the gym, I was feeling a bit down, and wondering when this sadness would leave me. I was listening to The Refuge (my favorite radio station), and the Lord gave me two songs this morning to comfort me.
Music is my worship language, and the Lord speaks to me so often through music.
The first son was Big Enough by Ayiesha Woods. I've heard the song a zillion times, but the words were for my heart this morning.

Lyrics to Big Enough :
You turned water into wine - how extraordinary
Gave sight to the blind - and still I carry
My own load when you told me
To take your yoke ‘cause yours is easy

And I don't wanna box you in
You've been doing big things since the world began
Sometimes I just don't wanna believe
That you're big enough - but you're big enough yeah!
But you're big enough Jesus

You turned darkness into light - keep my lamp burning
And you are my everything
There's no denying, your love is so amazing
And even though my problems seem typical
Nothing for you is ever too difficult
You never have reservations - love without limitations

Then, for some reason, the Refuge played Selah, which is kinda of OLD school for this radio station. But as I was listening, and singing, I realized the words were for me.


You Raise Me Up by Selah
When I am down, and oh my soul, so weary.
When troubles come, and my heart burdened be.
Then I am still and wait here in the silence.
Until You come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up so I can stand on mountains.
You raise me up to walk on stormy seas.
I am strong when I am on your shoulders.
You raise me up to more than I can be.

The Lord is so good to me.

My Verse for Today

Proverbs 3:5-6 (New International Version)

⁵ Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;

⁶ in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will direct your paths.

Saddness

I was doing better....I swear I was.
Lifest was so rejuvenating for me.
Another day.....sadness.
I did nothing to deserve this
but need to stop asking
why me?
resilience is what I need
what I am praying for
Jesus.....he does answer prayers
so hard to see the reasoning behind this
need to trust in his wisdom
quit thinking about my hurt

My Challenge

When I was at Lifest last weekend, one speaker, Bob Lenz talked about what was getting in the way of my relationship with God. Through the course of the talk, I realized that it was my pain getting in the way. I had allowed this situation with my children to take me over. I had gotten stuck in my own little pity party. This situation is something that God has completely under control. I need to trust him. He wants what's best for all of us. I find that I need to use that overused saying: Let Go and Let God! It is over used, but in my situation it's 100% true. I am but an empty shell, here for a greater purpose than to get so wrapped up in my own hurts. This earth is just a temporary situation.....my hope comes in eternal life. The Lord can handle my pain, my disappointments. He can even turn things around. I just need to trust in HIM!!!

By Your Side by Tenth Avenue North

Here is the song....

By Your Side

Last night at 11:30 I saw 10th Avenue North. This was a group of young men singing for the glory of God. Their words were powerful. I was waiting for them to sing By Your Side. As they did, I was struck by the words of this song. I know this song and love it, but when I was watching them sing it, the words really hit me. See the lyrics:


Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

(Chorus 2x)

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go

Paris: 'Daddy Has Been the Best Father'

This is heartbreaking!!

Michael Jackson Tribute Montage

Today is the day of the memorial service for Michael Jackson. It's a day of mourning, as well as celebration!
I will miss you MJ!

Words of a Dying Boy

A student in Farmington has just decided to stop his chemotherapy and radiation due to the fact that after many, many years of fighting this disease of cancer, he is not going to win. On his Caring Bridge website, he wrote these words yesterday. This young man is 16.



Through dying eyes, its a new world i see.

The colors are so much brighter.
The little things grow bigger day by day
And burdens grow even lighter.

As times grow shorter, you'd think i'd grow sadder
But it makes me cherish everything more.
And with each passing day, its easier to say
Live this one like never before.

And as sadness looms, i grow in faith.
As i trust in God for safety
this situation is our of my hands.
And i know that he will guide me

At a passing glance, there's nothing to me.
but there's more than meets the eye.
I see the world in a much different view
Than the average person passing by

And i wish everyone could see
the world through the eye of a dying man
because maybe, just maybe
people would live and see the world like i can.