I am beginning to feel despair about my new job.
When I talk about it, I realize that I am sad about my placement.
Don't get me wrong, there are many classes that I love teaching, etc.
BUT...my one class that is so horrible is killing me.
Besides that, I feel like I am dying of loneliness and isolation.
I do so well when I am part of something great, where collaboration is central, and where I am surrounded by friends. Currently none of those things are happening.
I am sure this is a great place to work, but I am just so isolated.
I need to change something, but don't know what or how.
I went out last night for dinner with a group of my dear friends. We all used to work together until the district reorganized. Now they are mostly together, spread out between two schools, and I am here at the high school.
I hear their stories of work, people, adventures, gossips.....and I am no longer part of any of it.
I left last night feeling sad and lonely....after being surrounded by my friends.
I wish I knew what to change....because I would change it.
I wrote an email last night to a few administrators which was fairly rude and wenchy.....but I am so frustrated, that I don't care how they take it. I am used to being close to my administrators. I am used to them hearing my requests, and working to help me figure it out. Not so the case here.
Maybe I will get fired from here...and I can go back to the middle school and pick up where I left off.
I need something to change.....I just wish I knew how to make it happen!
