Manifesting What is Before Us

I am reading a charming book called The Art of Racing in the Rain. It is a sweet account of the dog's life as he looks back on how rich his life has been. I might be reading it, in part, because we have just put down our old, sweet Sam!
When something hits me, I love to write it down. The dog, Enzo, has just said something profound:
That which we manifest is before us; we are the creators of our own destiny. Be it through intention or ignorance, our successes and our failures have been brought on by none other than ourselves.
I alone, can manifest a change in that which is around me. While I cannot say that I am a master of my own destiny, I can say that I have experienced a glimpse of mastery, and I know what I have to work toward.

A Day to Say Goodbye To Sam!

Rainbow Bridge

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

Author unknown...

SAM WE WILL MISS YOU!!

Loneliness

Loneliness can be so obscure
One minute I'm totally fine,
the next, the sadness slinks in.

The ache for my children has crept in
The pang of a mother's empty arms
Time absconded, never to be regained
Memories no more to be made

Will I never again feel my child's leg thrown over mine during a night of television watching?
Never again to kiss my child goodnight, or to kiss them awake

Mothering was an occupation that I took seriously
it was how I defined myself
Now who AM I?
Do I even care?

I want to be Mom...and not from afar.
I desire it more than anything.

The loneliness creeps in!

Friday

Couldn't be more happy that today is Friday.

Just wish it was a nice day like the last two have been!

It's a quiet reading Friday in my classroom!!

LOVE IT!!

I am currently reading Sea of Monsters...Percy Jackson and the Olympians book 2!

I JUST finished The Hunger Games. AMAZING BOOK!!!

NOW...bring on the WEEKEND!!!!

Jodi Picoult

An amazing night last night. I got to meet Jodi Picoult! She is just an amazing writer! I want to be a writer like that. I don't know how to do that...but I want to so much!!

And So It Ends

So tonight we sit and watch the closing ceremony of the 2010 Winter Olympics.
So many memories of these games: Lindsey Vonn, Apolo Anton Ohno, Shaun White, Evan Lysacek....and so many more. So close for both men's and women's hockey!
I'm proud to be an American. Our total medal count was 37! Pretty amazing!

Starting Again

I picked up my notebook again. I have started writing again. I got caught up in my life, and I stopped writing. I recently stumbled upon my notebook the other day. I read all that I had written, and realized that I wanted to resume.
I've decided to title it An Unremarkable Life.
I'm starting again.